An excerpt from the recently published book the Hymns to Shiva, Utpaladeva’s Shivastotravali, revealed by Swami Lakshmanjoo.
Chapter 12 (56:13)
मनसि स्वरसेन यत्र तत्र
प्रचरत्यप्यहमस्य गोचरेषु ।
प्रसृतोऽप्यविलोल एव युष्मत्-
परिचर्याचतुरः सदा भवेयम् ॥२५॥
manasi svarasena yatra tatra
pracaratyapyahamasya gocareṣu /
prasṛto’pyavilola eva yuṣmat-
paricaryācaturaḥ sadā bhaveyam //25//
There is one problem: I don’t want to control my mind because the mind is so swift, you cannot control it. It can’t be controlled by even the gods, i.e., the mind.
SWAMIJI: Really. It is very swift. If you watch your breath, you are watching your breath, and you won’t feel that point where your mind has escaped.
DENISE: Your mind is still going on.
SWAMIJI: [Your mind] is escaping. He escapes when you are not aware. If there will be unawareness for only one hundredth part of a second, and you will see that it has escaped one hundred miles away from that [first thought]. You can’t watch [the mind easily]. So, it is very difficult to handle.
SWAMIJI: Control it.
So, I don’t want to control it. It is beyond my power. Let it go, let it go; manasi svarasena yatra yatra pracarati, asya gocareṣu, let it go to objects, to worldly objects.
It is very difficult. The difficulty is felt only by those who watch. Those who do not watch, they don’t find any difficulty in controlling the mind.
I would like to have this kind of mind–it is [admitted]–but avilola eva, I must not be disturbed by its being astray always. Wherever my mind goes, I must adjust worship of God consciousness (God) there. Let it go. Let it go and I will worship God [wherever it goes]. I will worship God because God is everywhere. God is everywhere. If [my mind] goes to sex, I will worship God. If he goes to taste, I will worship God. If he goes to Amirakadal195, I will worship God. This strength must be maintained by me, possessed by me, avilola eva, without any worry, without worry. And yuṣmat paricaryā caturaḥ, and clever and aware in worshiping You, I must remain clever in worshiping You in each and every act of my mind, because it is not controllable, you can’t control it.
195. A place in Srinagar, Kashmir.Source: Hymns to Shiva, Utpaladeva’s Shivastotravali, revealed by Swami Lakshmanjoo